Thursday, March 18, 2010

The Wait

It had been on my mind since last week, however, I was able at times to push it under the rug and continue my day to day activities. Last night I had a difficult time sleeping and awoke this morning to my mind racing and my heart beating. Every minute that went by felt like an eternity. I said my prayers and trusted in God that everything was going to be o.k. But did I trust in God 100 percent? No, I did not. I am still angry with him and to honest I had little faith in him. However, I prayed and I prayed and I prayed this morning like I have never prayed before.Please God we are not ready to go through this a second time in so many years. Our wounds are still fresh and our hearts are still heavy the tears have not dried up in our eyes and often times still fall as if it had just happened. I felt like I prayed the hardest I have ever prayed in my life. Although my confidence in Him was wavering, I figured I would give it a shot. I waited until I thought he would be out of his appointment and called - No answer! I waited 5 more minutes, No answer. My mind started to race and my thoughts were going wild. Is it bad news? Is he avoiding the phone calls because he didn't know how to tell me? What was wrong? I needed to know. FINALLY i got hold of him ....... and our prayers were answered! No sign of cancer and no pre cancerous cells. Thank you Lord for prayers answered.